Am I supposed to put my life on hold because you don't know how to act and you don't know where your life is going? Am I supposed to be torn apart, broken hearted, in a corner crying? Pardon me if I don't show it.
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Yesterday was rather amusing. My cousin got married. It's actually the first *grand* Malay wedding that I've ever attended. It was nice. They had it by a lake side and there were like 12-13 tents? And slide shows of the couple when they were little and loud sappy love songs. The food was good and yeah :) It was a Malay wedding yes, but the bride wore a wedding gown and the groom wore a suit , no Baju Melayu's whatsoever. Haha. Well, it was very interesting actually :) Here are some pics..






Yeah so I was extremely exhausted when I got home, but you know me, never let myself go to sleep without coming online , even if it's just for a few seconds. So yeah, I took out my father's laptop and I sat on the bean bag with the laptop on top of me , happily using it. An hour later I woke up only to find out that I literally fell asleep while using the pc. HOW THE HELL. My father had to off everything and gosh, whathehell lah. I sleep while doing everything :( Bad bad habbit!

I haven't blogged in a couple of days. So yeah. Didn't do much throughout the week anyway :( Stayed in the Westin Hotel yesterday with a couple of my cousins for no good reason and had the most satisfying ice cream EVA :D

Whatever, ANYWAYS, so as we all (the whole world) know, Michael Jackson decided to suddenly drop dead on us. Pft. I don't get it. When he was alive, people couldn't stop making fun on how ugly he was and how he's weird and is a child molester and his nose sucks and his skin is fagot-ish but now that he is gone, literally everyone in mourning and crying and being all sad and shit on tv. Ugh, so pathetic. The radio can't stop playing his sonds and the news can't stop talking about him. And my father has been watching it since like the day he died -.- I never used to listen to his songs but it played so much on the radio that now I know the lyrics to MOST of his songs and even his background life story!! haha.

OH OH OH, It was also parents-teachers day today at school but my beloved mum forgot all about it and didn't go :) But she's coming on monday to get my report card anyway so , UH-OHhhhhh :P

Cassandra says:
talk to meeeeeeeeee
gldnAndrea says:
my ass really hurts
and i duno why
Cassandra says:
hahah
its the chair.. my ass hurts too
gldnAndrea says:
hahaha. im on the bed
its a sign
gldnAndrea says:
i should be cik kuah-ing or KINGhan-ing
Cassandra says:
your ass has nothing to do with maths or bm!
it prolly meansssss...
god wants you to take up fashion designing!
gldnAndrea says:
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA
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So tomorrow mum is coming home :) Yay. And and and not only HER but my godmaaaa from Aussie too :D DOUBLEyay! :P I TRIED my very best in trying to skip school tomorrow and using them as an excuse to not go to school but I guess my father isn't drunk enough to fall for it :( Damn. Oh well, can't wait till they get here.

I'm off now, school was good I supposed and I can predict that tomorrow will suck bad bad balls :(

Cause when your fifteen and somebody tells you they love you, your gonna believe them. Well, count to ten , this is life before you know who your gonna be.
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Hm, I guess that I'll just let everyone believe that I'm over it so that it'll be easier to really get over it myself.

I had a crap day today. Well, I've gotten platooned to crap days. Everyday is a crap day one way or another. I guess I'm appreciating these crap days that seem to love to come my way these days cause when the good days DO finally come, it feels REALLY good. Even if it's not all that great.

Today, I was walking around the house and then SUDDENLY BAMMM! This black figure just ran on the floor. Tiny black piece of shit. And I was like, what was that? So I looked under the table and it was AAAAAAAAAAAA cockroach!! :O OMFG! I screamed and I ran down cause well, two nights ago, there was a cockroach in cassie's house and it turned her maid into an apple and I've got school tomorrow and I really don't wanna go around looking like a fruit. If it was during the holidays then hey, I wouldn't mind ;) But thank goodness I found my life saver downstairs, SHEILDTOX :) So I sprayed that loser to death. Now it's in cocroach heaven with it's felow cockroaches and the cockroach in cassie's house cause apparently her brother stepped on it to death :( Poor baby.

Well, school tomorrow and I'm dead tired. I should really get some sleep. I'm looking forward to school. Pn.Shub's isn't coming and I've got no Cik Kuah. Huuurahhhh ;) And i've only got ONE period of Geography. wooooottt.

niteworld (:

If you read my post on CASSIE MAH MAN, then you'd understand this video ;) ahem,

just like the sun and the moon ; they'd look amazing together, but then again, ever so impossible.
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Today could have been better. Unfortunately, it just wasn't. So anyway , all the prefects had some prefect camp shit today and they all left at like 9 in the morning with Pn.Ond and all. So basically, the school was DISCIPLINE FREE. It felt so good being in the canteen and not rushing while we ate and no one going around screaming *GIRLS!! BUTTON UP NOW!! and EAT FASTER* ish, freaks.
Yeah so everyone took advantage of the situation and went MAD!

quite a random day actually. Asilla received a phone call from Pn.Shubs asking her to shisha later tonight in central market (KIDDING) :P And Rae saw the pengetua in Bangsar village ;) Hehe. OH OH and Cassie and I saw two beggers switching shift near tuition today ;) After a few hours, they changed places. haha. Cannot walk it seems! WE SAW THEM WALKING! :O losers.

trying to reach out to you, touch my hand
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I'm so lazy to go through school. I just feel like skipping a few months and head straight to the month of November. Actually, everything would be just fine if I could wake up tomorrow and have things the way it USED to be. Perfect.

:(

Can we make good now? mysm ayoi ;(
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Hmm, I am feeling slightly off today. I feel a soar throat coming and I don't feel like going through it.

Anyway, Mum's leaving for Korea tomorrow for a weak. Byebye mummy :( I have a feeling im not gonna like her absence. Who's gonna cook?! I can't rely on my father. He only knows how to cook NOODLES >=[ I can't live on only noodles for a WHOLE week. Hopefully time flies faster than usual and she gets home ASAP!

School's no good too. I've got an art folio that was due two weeks ago and I still haven't submitted it in. Well, I chose to do the more important subjects first and unfortunately, I just didn't have the time for arts. I'm so.. dead.

i wanna talk to ayoi :(

I'm sorta disappointed as of how there are no changes in my class whatsoever after the holidays. I was at least expecting ONE new teacher :P But ANYWAYS, since there are no changes in MY class , I shall blog about CASSIE's new SCIENCE teacher :P hehehe.

So today, Cassie was SUPPOSED to ponteng class and come to my class to do her history folio but she didn't. Good thing she didn't cause it turned out that the RELIEF teacher in her class was actually replacing her actual science teacher who had just given birth to a three-headed ostrich in Ulu Yam at 7.13 , last Tuesday morning. And since her delivery and her delivery RESULT wasn't normal at all, scientist from Afghanistan and Korea decided to work together and do a science experiment on her and her sorta baby. AND that is why she in on holiday :) Just like Pn.Julia , who is on holiday too cause of the whole acid throwing festival that happened few months ago. Apparently , so I heard from my ever to truthful best friend, they had some planting fluid shit in that acid that fell on her face and now there's a melaka tree growing there :) You know, the melaka tree? The one where parameswara sat under when his sisi dog got kicked into a river by that harmless dear? Yeah, that tree. And she's obviously ashamed of it which is why she doesn't wanna come back to school. Alaaa, just come back la. We promise not to make fun of you ;)

Ok FINE, maybe I was exegerating a LITTLE on the whole situation up there , but it really wont be surprising if it was true :P The things that go on in my school are beyond normal. Were actually all aliens from pluto and ever since that day where the scientist decided to cancel our planet from their planet list, we decided to take over earth ;) Only in SMKBB ;D But don't mind us, were just still a little unsatisfied with all the scientist thinking that they were TOO GOOD for our planets existence. So yeah :) Were just mainly out to get them. I mean hey, pluto was a one hell of a cute planet, dontcha think? ;)

OK FINE FINE, my whole post was all lies, BUT SO WHAT. It COULD have been true :P

Though a new man has given me attention, it ain't the same as your affection.
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Went back to school today. Tired as hell! Feeling so tensed with all the unfinished folio's and my crappy wood work. Ugh, I need help. It's too much to do alone! :( But going back to school was sorta fun cause well practically EVERYONE got new hair. Even en.visva ;) hehe. Felt like the first day all over again.

On a lighter note, I changed my place sitting in class and now I sit in the middle, under the fan, in beteween two boys that I dont even know (i guess it'll give me the chance to socialize with classmates for once). Good thing is, Raeda sits behind me so I still have my entertainment ;) At least I wont die of boredom. The other good thing would be that I'm not right behind anymore. I used to sit right at the back next to the door (the most unnoticed area) and I used to get so distracted by the people who walk pass or the noises the upper forms make. Mmm, yeah, the changes might do some good to me.

Yeah so, I guess I had a good day after all. Though my mind was somehwere else, I managed to pull everything off the way it was supposed to be.

i dont wanna go back i dont wanna go back i dont wanna go back !! :(

Fikrism says:
*hahaha
*mary had a little lamp


hahahahahaha. Cassie just HAD to tell raeda and I and then the THREE of us just HAAAAD to report it all to Asilla. Stories flying in just a second.

AND BY THE WAY fikri , mary MIGHT have had a lamp somewhere in her house but the song was based on her LAMB :)

I hate studying.

I seriously don't understand history. I mean, fine, I get it that you crack pots are DYING for every single one of us to be extremely patriotic , running around with a flag stuck to our heads or something like that but do you exactly have to make us study EVERY SINGLE goddamn detail? It's not very nice interesting you know -.- We get it that we merdeka'd and now we get to be proud or some shit. But no one really gives a shit about whatever's sultans and soldiers backgrounds and where they stayed and where they died and why and who killed them and if they pee'd in Indonesia or took a crap in Melaka. We don't wanna know what colour the plates and cups that they had their meals on were or what tiles they had in their balcony. What ever happened a gazzilion years back DOESN'T AMUSE US. Ok fine, some guy was heroic and saves everyone's asses but so what? That was years ago. Can't we live in the present and study about our future? Why do we have to live and read and memorise our freaking past? It's not like we can change what they did anyway.

And math, OhEmmGEEhhh! Don't even get me started! I get that 1+1=2 and all that but do we actually need to know what a(b+c) - b(c-d) is? Do they really have to go make up their own shit like it's even gonna make sense in our working lives next time? As we grow older, we learn more complicated shit bout graphs and unknowns and all that crap but everytime I look at my mum banging on the calculator, all I ever see her do is hit the + and - buttons. Occasionaly times and divide but that's all friggin basic! Why can't they just stop it there! EXPAAAAND the freaking numbers if they love it so much. But I guess I can't complain so much cause math somewhere along the line DOES make sense.

BUT SCIENCE? freak! They asked my friend how long the small intestine was, and I BET that if she answered "longer than the bigger intestine" , she'd get it wrong. In actual fact, it's NOT wrong. The question wasn't "SPECIFICLY, how long is the small instestine?" ..it was JUST "HOW LONG IS THE SMALL INTESTINE" (which no one gives a shit about but whatever) But I bet you can't even fight with them about that cause whatever we answer is always wrong. Why do we have to even study nutrition? It's a known fact that if we didn't eat, we'd die. And reproduction ? Penis+vagina=baby , end of story la! Damn detailed. So turning off -.-

BM is even worse! They keep changing everything as and when they like! I bet once they find out that everyone is starting to get the hang of the language, they get unsatisfied and change either the spelling or the phrase. UGH. Whats the difference if they just stuck to one? It's still teh same goddamn word! So SO So unreasonable! >=[ And whats up with all the different types of Bahasa's? Like for intance, BAHASA ISTANA? Why must different class people use different words that mean the same thing? Cut the crap la. It's not like their shitting gold or something. Just cause they got lucky -.- And whats up with peribahasa's? Why do they have to beat around the bush? Why can't they just GET TO THE POINT.

Stupid thing is , the BOOKS that we read (geo especially which is a hypocryte subject) tells us to stop pembalakan and all that shit about cutting trees cause it'll cause this disaster and that disaster and every other kinda disaster the world can think of and that we NEED the trees for oxygen and to hold the earth together so we wont have landslides and shit. BUT WHAT ARE THEY DOING? Their freaking photocopying the whole jungle to make test papers! And books. Then when we get text books, they ask us to KILL MORE TREES by buying empty books JUST SO THAT we can RE-WRITE everything in the text book onto our books again -.- And then their finding ways to stop the world from becoming screwed and stuff like that. THEY THEMSELVES are the freaking cause of it! Advising the nation not to cut trees it seems -.- Video tape your damn moves and watch what your doing la!

Another thing that annoys me is freaking VEGETARIAN MEAT. I go to functions and there's a table with a huge sign saying "VEGETARIAN". And when I head over, it's actually chicken, mutton, duck, lamb, ostrich's pee, horse fur.. well, you get the point ;) UH, ANYWAYS, It's freaking hard to believe that it's all actually made out of flour. Technically, their serving you fake meat? Loosers, MEAT'S THERE FOR A REASON! God/Allah/Cows(multi-armed elephants/blue coloured siva(according to cassie))/Budha didn't make meat just so you could get the IDEA of how it looked like and then create your own flour shaped meat just cause meat's dirty! Just eat lah! And why the hell are the vegetarians eating FAKE meat to begin with? It taste just the same! They are vegetarians for a reason. That's like FASTING and drinking the water while you bath. NO POINT AT ALL.

UGH.

cassie , me

hey, whats tembikar?
uh, i don't know.. what ah?
watermelon?
thats tembiKAI. haha

;; sign, the BM these days :P

I didn't give it to you on purpose, can't figure out how you stole it <3
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Sigh, I can't help but care.


So today I was really annoyed. Yeah, ANNOYED to the core core core! Till my freaking toes vibrated! Lol. Yes! That's how annoyed I was. All because the water man came at FREAKING 9 IN THE MORNING! obviously I was sleeping like every other NORMAL person. And I was home alone so he kept ringing the doorbell. I ignored, duh. But then he called MUM -.- So she called me and ask me to open the door for him and so I had no choice but to do so , ugh. But after he left, I slept like a baby till 4 :D hehe. It's freaking holidays for crying out loud! I'm just trying to catch up on all the sleep since I was born :P hehe.

So anyways, hopefully no one will bug me in dreamland tomorrow :) I plan to visit it till noon at least ;) I've got tuition at 3 anyways, so I SHOULD be getting my rest before that shouldn't I ? :P

Holidays are almost over :( I touched my homework. Haven't touched my folio's. NOTHING, ZERO :) Wish me all the luck in the freaking world <3

And oh, on top of all of that not sleeping and tons of unfinished work, I'm also lovesick.

Manda's gonna stay with her friend at the hospital tonight and she's gonna take the freaking laptop with her. That would mean that I CAN'T USE IT! >=[ WTF am I gonna do at home tonight then? :( WHAT WHAT WHAT! My astro is screwed and everyone's like.. out.. Mum's out, Father's out, sister is gonna go out in like half an hour :( someone save me :(

As we can all see, my blog is now more SANE :)
I changed my skin la, duh. I like it better now :D So so colorful. ngee. Anyways, hope it's not too confusing with all the bars and crap. And oh! my c-box has a bit of an attititude prob, so when you post a msg, it doesnt appear until you refresh the page :)

I only expected you to blow me off

Today, June the 6th 2009, was the first I turned the fire on the stove on :O wow! It all started off like this ..

manda
me

Manda, I want to eat pasta, can boil the pasta for me?
Can you learn how to do it yourself?
I would , but I don't know how to on the fire..
I'll teach you..
Promise i'll learn next time, but now you do la :D
no! there (points at stove turning thingie) just press it and turn till the middle
what If it blows up?
It wont lah! Just turn!
(turns it really patheticly then lets go) AHHH! see didn't work!
again! you're gonna be proud when it comes on..
Yeah, IF i make it out alive :P
ugh, just turn
(tries again) OMG! i did it!!
(then i boast about my achievement for the next 10 minutes)

I should receive a medal of trophy or something. No, really :)

You like romantic movies and you never will forget the way you felt when Romeo kissed Juliet.
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For some reason, I feel really, really, down. I have no reason to be though, but I just am. Gosh, I need to get a grip.

goodnight.

Roshinni , Cassie and I went to Sunway today to get our hair cut. We went to A Cut Above. They screwed us :) haha. They made me look like they forgot to cut one side. They made Cassie look like Jesus and they made Roshinni look like they placed a bowl on her head and cut her fringe according to it. BUT WE SHALL STAY POSITIVE, as we all know, hair GROWS :D

raeda
me

ABOT ABOT ABOT ABOT
ABOT ABOT ABOT ABOT
hahahahahahahaha
eh, what's a boat in malay ah?
oh yahhh, eh what ah?
sampan ?
em, isn't sampan a yacht? maybe kapal?
sampan's that long shit lah.. kapal is too fancy to be a boat.. HMMM
(both thinking very hard)
HAHAHAHA a boat is BOT lah! just spelled differently!
hahahhahahahahaha.. omg, how stupid. lets go ask everyone :D
:)
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So anyways, my father got back from London 2 days ago and my mum seems happier now :P cheh.. Yeah so he got me a slip on shoe (i like, surprisingly,lol) and a couple of tops (that didn't fit :P) and and the MOST IMPORTANT, sweets :D well, i've been dying to have jaw breakers ever since i saw the movie "jaw breaker" but never actually could find it here in KL. So yeah, he came back with my jaw breakers and a bunch of other choc's and sweets, yum ;D

He insisted that we all sat down and looked at ALL his pictures there last night and it all seemed so.. fake. haha. And he also insisted that we tried all his chocolates -.- and yah. It seemed so fast that he went and got back. blegghhh -.-

ANYWAYYYSSSSS, I'm getting my hair cut today, with Cassie and Roshnay. Were going to sunway. I don't know why so far though, I mean, it's not like bangsar doesn't already have one too many hair dressers ;p But yeah, were all gonna get FRINGES. I'm a bit creeped about how mines gonna turn out. But if it turns out shit then.. UH-OH :s