one who seemed unbeatable, broke
one who seemed so strong, crumbled
one who laughed things off, cried
and the one who never stopped trying, finally gave up.
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For some weird reason, I just feel like sleeping and waking up 3 days before Christmas. Yeah, just in time to get everyone's presents and then celebrate my favorite time of the year. Cause lately, everything that I've tried to do right has just gone wrong. One way or another, it just never works out the way it's supposed to.

Last week, when we were doing our KH folio's , I was sitting and talking to Giuli. She was helping me with my folio. She literally helped everyone there who needed her help and even skipped classes for her friend. And in the end, she didn't even get anything out of it. In fact, she ended having a bad day and was quite pissed half of the time. No one appreciated her help , they just took advantage of her presence. And she complained to me about it. I so get her. Lately I've been feeling the same too. I have tried to do good stuff for people, but no one ever appreciates what you do for them. Instead, they use the opportunity to take advantage of you. Only use you when they need you and when they don't, your just a wall to them. Not feeling any sort of guilt whatsoever.

I don't know why. But I feel really angry. More annoyed than angry actually. Or actually, maybe just sad. But again I say, I don't actually know why. It's just the feeling. And it sucks. Everything about ANYTHING that happens just feels so annoying. I feel so BUGGED and if I had the chance to hurt someone and make them cry and cry and cry, I would. And I don't even know why. I've just been having this urge to smash someone, phisically would be impossible as I don't think I would dare, but emotionally sounds like an idea. I just feel really bitter and cruel. I snap at people who get in my way. No, I snap at people even if they DONT get in my way. I just snap. I just feel like I need everyone to feel exactly what I'm feeling though i'm not even sure what that feeling is exactly. I don't know, maybe missery just loves company.

Oh and to top it all of with a great ending,
I think it's just great if the world knows that,
my knight in shining armour,
turned out to be a loser in aluminum foil.